Bit by bit, I diversified.
I joined an atheist community. I was feeding my mind with the many things I got there till I started questioning the existence of God.
You sure say this God dey exist? Hope say no be wayo dem dey teach us for church? It was torturing.
I kept exploring and exploring. I can't recount the many times I lied to my online friends making them believe what I want them to believe.
I would go on and on and feed them with facts that was only google-proof or imaginary.
I recall a particular young girl I met online at a time. She was a 200level student at the Kogi State University(I suppose). I shared with her of how I have gotten a 2nd degree already as at that time. I made her believe I have a younger sister called 'Chy' who is about the same age as her.
She would speak with me on phone and request I pass on the phone to her paddy 'Chy". The truth is, there was never a 'Chy'. I answer both calls without her slight knowledge. She confides in me of her relationship with her boyfriend and one day, I decided to share another imaginary brother with her.
As the saying goes; you would always need another lie to cover up the other lies. In a bid to make things more real, I connected her with my elder brother. That was where I got bursted!
My brother was more honest than me. He told her all the truth she needs to know. If there was any online saga that touched and taught me tough lessons, it was this because I came to like her a lot that I advised my brother to marry her. She didn't forgive me for lying to her and I really wish I can make it up to her.
Lot of times, I feel the relationship advise that I gave her then were out of sentiments, not authentic and it is not enough to make up for the lies and imaginary siblings.
She has grown to become a very beautiful woman today. I wished I was more honest not just to her but to every other person.
Just before it got more bad with the atheism silent following, I encountered God in a completely amazing way.
To be continued.
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